Welcome to our family blog!

This blog was started in October 2010 shortly before our daughter, Abigail Grace, was born. She was diagnosed at our 18 week ultrasound with Holoprosencephaly (HPE), and we were preparing for a child with very complex medical needs and a shortened life expectancy. Abby was born on November 12th and sadly passed away just four days later. This blog follows me, Matt and Abby’s big brother, Connor, along our journey from preparing for Abby’s birth through our adjustment to life without her.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Happy Halloween!

Happy Halloween!  Connor had fun at his first Halloween party on Friday night.  I’m not quite sure what he was expecting, but he was definitely overwhelmed at first, and to be honest, so was this Pre-K mommy!  There were kids, some were as big as small adults, screaming and walk-running allover the place.  Parents Magazine recently reported that the whole “sugar high” theory in kids is actually a myth…I beg to differ.  Eventually he settled into a beanbag toss game that occupied him and a few other classmates for a good portion of the night.  The massive helmet only lasted a short while; I’m wondering how it’s going to work out for trick or treating tonight.  He's been practicing different “trick or treat” phrases through the Vader voicebox:  "You don't know the power of the dark side...trick or treat", "Don't make me destroy you...trick or treat", and of course, "I AM your father...trick or treat"!!!  We’re really looking forward to hitting up the neighborhood with our buddies from down the street, so I’m trying to rest up this afternoon and save my energy for tonight.  When I suggested that I might stay home to pass out candy Connor’s response was “Well mommy, I really need you to come out with me.  I might get scared because I’ll still be four, you know.”  I obviously followed that up by smooshing his face and telling him I’d go out :)

I really just want to get through tonight for Connor; after that I'm SO ready to be done with being pregnant.  Abby, you are invited to join us anytime after 7:30pm this evening.  I'm barely mobile, so it's not like I will be doing much productive to prepare for you in the next 12 days.  Let's just do this!

Have a safe and fun night everyone!


Darth Vader or Dark Helmet? You be the judge!

The Dark Side is no match for that smile :)
















Thursday, October 28, 2010

First Post!

The pressure of the first post on a blog...enough to put a girl into labor!  Well, not really- though at this point I wouldn't be opposed to that happening.  We're scheduled to meet Abby in 15 days, however my frame just isn't meant to handle this much weight.  God bless my mother in law (who is built similarly to me) for carrying twins!!! Miss Abby is already more than a full pound larger than Connor was at birth, and I just don't know if I can take two more weeks of this.  I'm just hoping she stays put until November, because we're really looking forward to Halloween on Sunday!  Connor is going out as Darth Vader- he chose his costume two full months ago and has surprisingly not wavered the least bit in his excitement about it.  He even upgraded his costume last week by borrowing his friend Joey's super cool Vader helmet that has a voice box attached.  This is serious stuff!  He's giving it a test run tomorrow night at his school's Halloween party.  This is definitely the most excited he's been about dressing up, which has made it much more fun this year for Mom and Dad!  Can't wait to post pics of my evil Jedi Master.



Con is also very eager to wear his "Big Brother" t-shirt.  It was supposed to stay under wraps until I went to the hospital, but he found it in my laundry pile this week.  Of course, he wants to wear it now!  I'm not surprised- he is SO excited to be a big brother, and it has dinosaurs on it.